Child Protection

This may be a bit of a rant today.  Why am I seeing so many instances of child abuse these days?  I remember the other day I talked about in my last posting about a four year old girl being afraid of her mother.  Now, I have to post about the step-daughter.  Let's call her Sharon.  Well, Sharon is my husband's daughter from a previous short relationship he had before he married the control freak.

I know I talked about Sharon in a previous posting, but this is different.  Sharon is getting tattoos at the cost of a thousand dollars apiece.  When her father asked who is paying for them, she said her ex is.  So now she called the other day saying she needed some money to buy groceries.  He said no, that he had no money.  She said, "Yes, you do have money."  This is a phone conversation that he had with her, so he filled me in on the details later.  All I saw was his anger over the phone, as he has been getting frustrated over his daughter who is a single mother, just like Jessie, my daughter.

Well sometime later, he told me that Sharon had told him, "So you will let your grandkids starve then?"  The anger shot up in me.  I entirely hate Sharon now.  Totally.  I know I shouldn't be posting this as it is just too private.  But I can tell you how this rage went right through me, shot through me like a hot iron.

Starving.  Can you believe that?  The ex(the father of her two children) buys her tattoos at the cost of a thousand dollars apiece?  He can't buy her food for their two children.  But he can buy tattoos?  So the kids have to go hungry?

So here was what was going on in my mind.  I went to the city to buy some quilting supplies a few days later.  Quilting supplies are rather expensive, so I felt so guilty.  Plus, I don't work or have my own income.  This sucks.  The only thing that gives my poor mind comfort about it is that I shouldn't be depriving myself so she can get tattoos.  But the kids are starving.

I know what he is thinking.  That the kids are not starving, she is looking for a contributer for her tattoos, so the whole thing is bullshit.  But try to tell this to a survivor of child abuse.  All I can think about is that she is willing to starve the kids for tattoos, that's all I can think about.  I hate her.  And even if it wasn't true she is still using those kids.

I remember growing up that word, STARVE,  was a normal word in our household.  We had a farm, with livestock.  But if father was angry with mother, there would be no food as he was the provider.  I remember several times we would have to skip meals, or eat turnips for dinner because father was angry.  I know I said before that my father was a nice man.  So this piece doesn't seem to fit.  Why oh why is this so hard?  I'm jumbling the pieces together and its like putting together several jigsaw puzzles and trying to make it look like one.

My husband is pissed about her lies.  Still though a part of me thinks that maybe she underestimated her finances and went and got the tattoos and has no money now to feed the kids.  A normal parent would skip eating themselves to feed the kids.  I know I did.  But Sharon won't do that?

At one point, about a month ago, she went and drove 3 hours to go and babysit a friend's dog.  All in the same month she claims the kids are starving.  Ok, I'm almost ready to lose it here.

Let's talk about child protection services shall we?  All they do is put the children in serious harm. Really all they are are women dressed up in the latest fashion stirring up trouble.  That's all.  I thought about calling them just to find out what it is that they do that makes them claim so much of the taxpayer's salary.

I have to keep this short, I don't like to live in this much anger.  If you want to comment here, please do, but this is real and raw stuff I'm seeing all over the place now.  I need more than just telling me to do something.  The MN's rule the world now and there is no real child protection services.  I won't put kids in serious harm just so I can say "I did something".