I'm in a sad mood today. This video's lyrics seem to sum up my feelings. It is making me cry because I feel overwhelmed by the fact that I was fordoomed for failure, because of my upbringing. Its here for you to listen to, it really is beautiful song, but here are the words if you don't want to listen to it.
Step by step
Heart to heart
Left, right, left
We all fall down
Like toy soldiers
It wasn't my intention to mislead you
It never should have been this way
What can I say
It's true, I did extend the invitation
I never knew how long you'd stay
When you hear temptation call
It's your heart that takes, takes the fall
Won't you come out and play with me
Step by step
Heart to heart
Left, right, left
We all fall down
Like toy soldiers
Bit by bit
Torn apart
We never win
But the battle wages on
For toy soldiers
It's getting hard to wake up in the morning
My head is spinning constantly
How can it be?
How could I be so blind to this addiction?
If I don't stop, the next one's gonna be me
Only emptiness remains
It replaces all, all the pain
Won't you come out and play with me
Step by step
Heart to heart
Left, right, left
We all fall down
Like toy soldiers
Bit by bit
Torn apart
We never win
But the battle wages on
For toy soldiers
We never win
Only emptiness remains
It replaces all, all the pain
Won't you come out and play with me
Step by step
Heart to heart
Left, right, left
We all fall down
Like toy soldiers
Bit by bit
Torn apart
We never win
But the battle wages on
For toy soldiers
Step by step
Heart to heart
Left, right, left
We all fall down
Like toy soldiers
Bit by bit
Torn apart
We never win
But the battle wages on
For toy soldiers
Heart to heart
Left, right, left
We all fall down
Like toy soldiers
It wasn't my intention to mislead you
It never should have been this way
What can I say
It's true, I did extend the invitation
I never knew how long you'd stay
When you hear temptation call
It's your heart that takes, takes the fall
Won't you come out and play with me
Step by step
Heart to heart
Left, right, left
We all fall down
Like toy soldiers
Bit by bit
Torn apart
We never win
But the battle wages on
For toy soldiers
It's getting hard to wake up in the morning
My head is spinning constantly
How can it be?
How could I be so blind to this addiction?
If I don't stop, the next one's gonna be me
Only emptiness remains
It replaces all, all the pain
Won't you come out and play with me
Step by step
Heart to heart
Left, right, left
We all fall down
Like toy soldiers
Bit by bit
Torn apart
We never win
But the battle wages on
For toy soldiers
We never win
Only emptiness remains
It replaces all, all the pain
Won't you come out and play with me
Step by step
Heart to heart
Left, right, left
We all fall down
Like toy soldiers
Bit by bit
Torn apart
We never win
But the battle wages on
For toy soldiers
Step by step
Heart to heart
Left, right, left
We all fall down
Like toy soldiers
Bit by bit
Torn apart
We never win
But the battle wages on
For toy soldiers
I used to love this song. I miss the older music where it had real emotions in it.
ReplyDeleteI too ponder "Why couldn't it be different?" and am very sad about how life turned out.
Hope you feel better soon and praying for you.
Thanks Peep. This song just ripped me to the core. I don't know how I got to thinking of it today, I never knew the lyrics, this time I decided to look them up. So haunting and tragic. Ok, I know the song is about drug addiction, but it can be for us too I think.
ReplyDeleteIf I could post a youtube clip. I keep referencing those long talks I have in my head long after everyone is asleep and I am alone with my thoughts and the squalled history that is what I have to look back on for a once decent life with a once loving family that my mother couldn't stop herself from steamrolling over. I found a clip that personifies the catch up logic we/I have to rely on to make some sort of sense about the mortar hole my mother left behind and I think I have found it. It's a clip of Denzel Washington playing the part of Rubin Carter a 60's era boxer who was wrongly sentenced to life in prison for a murder he didn't commit back in the 60's. In the scene he is on the back end of a large stretch in solitary confinement for not bowing to the rules of a jail he feels he shouldn't be in. He was a boxer so his actions are a bit more vigorous than what go's on in my head. But the logic and frustration are from the same place and his anger at himself and the world are something I can relate to on a gut level.
ReplyDeletehttps://www.youtube.com/watch?v=awPW53zVMdY
Lot of F bombs so be warned.
Great Song. Funny I never heard of her or it before.
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